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Elizabeth Crook's new novel Monday, Monday begins on the darkest day in UT's history. In this excerpt, a young student named Shelly Maddox is walking across the Forty Acres after class. It is an August morning in 1966, and life will never be the same.
Shelly stared at the graph of imaginary numbers on the chalkboard, confounding
figures represented by the letter i and less
relevant to her life than fairies from her childhood
or the vanishing rabbit in the magic
show at the Student Union last week. The
professor had the face of a cherub and arms
too long for his squattish body and was marking
on the chalkboard as he spoke. “The square
root of minus four,” he said, slashing the numbers
onto the board, a ring of sweat under his
arm, “is two i. Two i squared is negative four.
That’s two times two is four—times i times i,
which is negative one . . .”
The room was uncomfortably hot, air only
slightly cooled rattling insufficiently from
the vents. From her seat beside the window,
Shelly could see out over the trees and walkways
of the South Mall. At the nearest end of
the mall, a gaudy fountain of bronze horsemen
reared from a pond of turbid water into
a shower of sunlight. Far away at the opposite
end, beyond the branches burdened with ball
moss and summer foliage and large flocks of
grackles, the massive stone Main Building,
with its pillars and terraces and the Tower
rising nearly thirty stories, imposed itself
against a hot, pale, cloudless sky.
The professor turned to the class and repeated
the concept. Few of the students gave
any appearance of understanding. “So we’ve
been looking at the real numbers up to now,”
he said. “Numbers that fall on a number line.
They include both rational and irrational
numbers. Now we are talking about imaginary
numbers. These fall on a different kind
of number line, one that is perpendicular . . .”
Shelly began to think the cramping in her
stomach might be caused by her period about
to start, and she calculated the weeks. She
had been home to visit her parents in Lockhart
during her last period. She remembered
buying a box of tampons at the grocery store
there, on the same day she had argued with her
father about the Peace Corps. And yes, it was
a month ago—two math exams back. Maybe
when class was over, she would walk across
the plaza to the Rexall on the Drag and buy
another box of tampons and a bottle of Midol
and have a Coke and a sandwich at the soda
fountain. She had agreed to a blind date with
an upperclassman in the International Club
who intended to go to El Salvador with the
Peace Corps, and she wasn’t about to miss the
chance to hear about José Napoléon Duarte
because of monthly cramping.
“Does everybody follow what I’m saying?”
His cherubic face was tilted. He was young for
a professor. “Does anybody follow? Marvin?”
“No, sir.”
Shelly closed her notebook and stood up— and hesitated, one of those small, seemingly inconsequential actions that she would recall for the rest of her life.
“Raise your hand if you follow.” Half the
students raised their hands. Shelly kept hers
on her desk, drooping a pencil over the ugly
construction of lines and numbers she had
copied into her notebook from the drawing
on the board.
She wondered what El Salvador might look
like. What kind of trees, what kind of towns.
They didn’t teach you anything about El Salvador
in Lockhart, which was just as well,
since she might end up going to Honduras
or Venezuela or maybe Ecuador. Or Bolivia.
She had heard there were herds of llamas in
Bolivia, and maybe she could see them. Not
that this decision about where she would
go could be made anytime soon, since she
had finished only one year here at UT. Even
if she took classes every summer, as she was
doing now, she would still have two or three
more years before she could apply to the Peace
Corps. And she would have to master Spanish.
The professor turned to the window and
surveyed the Tower clock. “Imaginary numbers
will be on the test,” he said. “We’ll call
it a day at this point—for those of you who
understand. For those who don’t, we’ll take
fifteen minutes and go over it again. And I’ll
be in my office from seven to eight tonight if
anyone wants to come by.”
Most of the students were already closing
their books and rising from their desks. He
spoke his daily benediction of mathematical
quotations as they filed out of the room, lifting
his voice over the noise of their departure.
“ ‘Go forth with great numbers to solve the
world’s problems,’ ” he told them. “ ‘Keep in
mind that you achieve perfection not when
there is nothing left to add, but when there is
nothing left to take away.’ ”
Shelly closed her notebook and stood up—
and hesitated, one of those small, seemingly
inconsequential actions that she would recall
for the rest of her life. She should stay, but
fifteen minutes would hardly be enough to address her confusion about imaginary numbers.
The room was oppressively hot, and her
cramps were uncomfortable. And today was
only Monday; she had the rest of the week to
study. Still, she didn’t want the professor to
think she was cavalier about the math. She
had managed to make a perfect grade point
average her freshman year and wasn’t about
to spoil it in a summer math class.
“Are you going?” the girl seated behind her asked.
“I’m not sure. I guess I shouldn’t.”
Sitting back down indecisively, she noted
dampness between her legs, the tacky feeling
of blood. She rose and, turning as if to glance
casually out the window, wiped a hand across
the back of her skirt to see if blood had shown
through. It hadn’t, for now, but she would have
to take care of the matter.
“No, I think I’ll go,” she told the girl and
stuffed her belongings into her bag. “I’ll come
back tonight,” she told the professor. She was
the last to exit and tried to walk quietly to the
ladies’ room. Classes were still in session.
Doors had been left open to ensnare improbable
drafts of air. But her sandals were wooden-
soled and impossible to silence. Clomping
past the doorways, she saw envious glances
from students still captive in classrooms.
The Tower bells were chiming a quarter
to noon when she walked back down the hall
and down the flights of stairs, the melodious
notes overlaying the clop of her sandals. She
recalled that the Spanish word for “tower”
was torre and pictured the map of Central
America, with tiny El Salvador pressed up
against Honduras and Guatemala.
Outside, belligerent grackles greeted her
with loud squawking. The August heat was
thick. She started along the shaded path
toward the Main Building and the Tower,
squinting even before she left the shade of the
trees. Crossing a narrow street, she walked
under the statue of Woodrow Wilson and
mounted the steps to the upper part of the
plaza as a boy carrying a transistor radio, blaring
“Monday, Monday,” passed her on his way
down. Monday, Monday—Shelly hummed
along with the Mamas and the Papas as she
climbed the steps—can’t trust that day /
Monday, Monday, sometimes it just turns
out that way.
On the plaza, the sunlight was unnerving.
It whitewashed the massive stone arches and
the carved pillars of the Main Building before
her, making the Tower look as flat against the
sky as if it had been pasted on blue poster
board. The song sounded tinny now, reduced
to a mere ditty behind her: Every other day,
every other day / Every other day of the week
is fine, yeah / But whenever Monday comes,
but whenever Monday comes / You can find
me crying all of the time...
Perhaps she should have a Sego diet drink
at the Rexall and skip the Coke and sandwich,
she thought, starting across the plaza. She
had put on five unwanted pounds during her
freshman year, and the pencil skirt she wore
felt tight around her waist. She was heading
toward a grassy square around a flagpole,
intending to cut across, when she noticed
a boy from her biology class coming down
the steps of the Main Building. He fumbled
through the pages of a book as he walked, and
she tried to remember his name in case he
noticed her. Chad, she thought it was. Or Chet.
When he started across the plaza, he lifted his
eyes and saw her. He closed the book, tucked
it under his arm, and raised his hand to wave.
But something puzzled her: instead of a smile,
a sudden grimace. The raised hand flung itself
back at the wrist, and one leg cocked forward.
It was a clownish gesture, and she wondered
how to respond to it. In the same second she
heard a sharp noise, like a car backfiring, or
maybe it was the jostling of construction
equipment on the Drag, where the theater
was being renovated.
He fell facedown, the book tumbling open
beside him and a splotch of red spreading
on the back of his plaid shirt. An ungainly
lurching movement seized his legs and then
stopped.
She stood looking at him, trying to understand,
and was taking a step toward him when
something struck her, slinging one of her arms
outward and spinning her toward the small
hedge that bordered the grassy square. She
tried to break the fall, but the side of her head
struck the ground and she lay for a second,
stunned and embarrassed to have fallen in
public. She tried to get to her knees and get
her balance so she wouldn’t topple over. But
her arm was coming apart.
Clarity took hold slowly. The boy lay dead before her ... Someone began, horribly, to scream.
It seemed almost
detached. The bone above the elbow jutted
jaggedly out of the flesh, and the lower part
was weirdly twisted. Blood poured from her
breast. She tried lifting her hands to stop the
blood, but her arm wouldn’t comply. It hung
at her side. The pain was electric. She pressed
her other hand against her breast, but the
blood ran between her fingers and spurted
down her side, soaking the tattered bits of her
bra and the pattern of yellow flowers on her
blouse. She reached to get her book bag and
gather what was scattered—her books, her
math notes. But her arm hung like a puppet’s.
Clarity took hold slowly. The boy lay dead
before her. She heard the sound again ring
down from the sky, plunking itself into the
clear heat of the day. Someone began, horribly,
to scream, and a man yelled something about the Tower. A woman fell to the ground
not far from Shelly. Birds flew from the trees
and cement exploded upward. Shelly tried to
stand again, but her legs wouldn’t support
her, and she sat back on her knees. She had
suffered dreams like this—her limbs refusing
to move, the atmosphere as thick as water and
weighting her down.
Crawl, she told herself. To the hedge.
She tried to look at the Tower, but the sun
was too intense. She pawed at the ground,
breathing hard and coughing with nausea, but
her wounded arm just hung there. She heard
herself wail. The hedge was only knee-high
and wouldn’t protect her even if she could
reach it, yet it was the only vertical shape
the world offered. Everything else was flat
ground. Things flew about her. There was the
thud of impact on flesh and bone. Not hers,
she thought. Not me this time. A whimper and
cry. The hot concrete seared her palm when
she tried to pull herself forward, dragging her
mangled arm. Blood seeped into the porous
stone beneath her. The frayed bra held her
breast to her body and kept the lump of flesh
from dropping like Jell-O. She whispered for
someone to help her and methodically lifted
her palm, then methodically set it down, pulling
her knees forward, watching her blood
bubble into the ground.
The sound instantly struck Wyatt Calvert
as out of place, blasting over the stentorian
voice of his professor and bouncing through
the plaza outside. “Destruction of Kiev,” he
was writing in his notebook, “—Mongols,
1240.” He looked up as the sound repeated. It
reminded him of deer hunting and the concussion
of rifle shots in a canyon. A student with
a crew cut who was near the window stood up
and looked out over the crown of an oak tree,
and the professor paused from his lecture.
“There’s something happening on the mall,” the student said.
A girl got up and looked out. “I think it’s something to do with the
Drama Department.”
Wyatt made his way through the rows
of desks to the windows. The panes were
dirty, the view partly cluttered by a tangle of
branches. Fumbling with a lock, he tugged
at a window, pulling hard at the frame until
it jerked upward, creating an open rectangle
of raw heat and admitting the buzz of insects
and the sudden flutter of wings, and then the
blast again, louder now, and its echo. The wide
overhang a few feet above blocked the noon
sun. Below, a dozen people in the bright square
of the plaza had an odd disruption in their
movements, a hesitation. Some had come
to a standstill and were looking around. A
boy with a laundry bag ran diagonally across,
shouting over his shoulder. At the steps to the
lower part of the mall a plump girl in red pedal
pushers lay on her back, her hands clutching
her stomach, her legs lifting and sinking at the
knees in a languid gesture, as if to escape the
scalding concrete. In the center of the plaza
a guy in a plaid shirt and black trousers lay
motionless, half on his side, his arm thrown
out and a book on the ground beside him.
Close to him a girl in a skirt dragged herself
laboriously toward the hedgerow with the use
of one arm, leaving a trail of gore and moving
like a wounded beetle.
“Christ,” Wyatt said. “Somebody’s shooting people.”
As Wyatt rounded the corner, word was spreading and a sense of alarm rising, voices escalating.
He didn’t move for a second or two, his
eyes fixed on the spectacle. A man climbing
the steps from the lower part of the plaza
toppled backward, followed by the blast of
sound again. Thick in the shoulders and heavy,
he lay faceup on the steps, as if tobogganing
on his back, headfirst, down, the soles of his
shoes pointing upward near the girl in the
pedal pushers.
Wyatt swung his gaze to the Tower and
searched the rows of windows up to the top.
The gold hands of the Tower clock marked the
time at 11:51. On the high, walled deck below it,
a figure appeared and then eerily vanished. A
second later the figure popped into view again,
aiming a glinting rifle down at the East Mall.
Smoke puffed out of the barrel as the sound
blasted. From below came a muted noise and
a muffled, lingering shout. The figure on the
deck disappeared again and then reappeared
a second later. Wyatt saw the white bloom but
didn’t hear the blast this time. The window
beside him exploded.
“Get down!” the professor yelled. “Away from the windows! Down!”
Only a few of the students complied at first; then everyone moved
at once, crouching beside their desks and crowding against the wall.
“They’re shooting at you, Calvert!” someone yelled at Wyatt. “Get
out of the way!”
For a second, he squatted under the windows in the shattered glass
scattered over the floor. Then he started crawling.
“Stay down, Calvert!” the professor ordered,
but Wyatt kept moving. When he
reached the door, he stood up and ran through
the hallway, shouting for students to stay in
the building and away from the windows.
“Someone’s shooting from the Tower!” he
shouted. Students turned and stared at him,
not believing. He knocked into an underclassman,
who snapped, “Hey, watch it!” In a room
at the end of the hall he found a group of students
gathered around a map that hung from
the chalkboard. “Has Jack Stone left already?”
he asked them, breathing hard.
“I think he’s in Wood’s office,” a lanky girl
in a brown jumper replied.
“Someone in the tower’s shooting people on the plaza,” Wyatt
called over his shoulder as he started for the professor’s office.
“Is this the experiment in psychology?” the girl called after him.
“The one where they see if we’ll go help?”
“Don’t go outside!” he shouted back.
He passed the underclassman he had
knocked into a moment ago, and the guy
cleared out of his way now, backing against
the wall and joking, “Shooter in the Tower! I
bet! Everyone run, hide!” A scatter of laughter
followed. But as Wyatt rounded the corner,
word was spreading and a sense of alarm rising,
voices escalating.
The office he was headed to was on the far side of the building.
Rushing in, out of breath, he found his cousin Jack talking with the
professor.
“Where’s Delia?” Wyatt said. “Where were you going to meet her?”
“On the plaza. Why?”
“There’s somebody in the Tower shooting
people on the plaza. Where was she coming
from?”
Jack was already on his feet. “She would have parked on the Drag.”
The professor picked up the phone. “What do I tell the police?”
“At least four people shot on the plaza, at least one guy with a rifle
up in the Tower.”
Jack started down the hall, now crowded with students. Wyatt was
close on his heels. “Go outside the other way or you’ll walk right into
it!” Wyatt shouted over the noise.
“I’m going the way she would come,” Jack said.
But at that moment Delia appeared before
them, wide-eyed, running up the stairs, her
black hair clinging to her damp forehead.
Jack swept her into his arms. “Thank God,”
he said. “Go to Wood’s office. He’s calling the
police. Stay in the office with him. And stay
there if he leaves.”
“Where are you going? Jack?”
Jack had already started down. “Go to Wood’s office and wait
for me.”
“And call Elaine at work at Sears,” Wyatt told her as he passed her.
“Tell her not to come near campus.”
Two boys pushed by, heading down, yelling
about a “shootout.” Wyatt warned them to go
back up, but they shoved past him. Running a
step behind Jack, almost on top of him, Wyatt
thought of the bodies on the plaza—how easily
the man had dropped backward on the stone
steps without even trying to break his fall.
A group of new freshmen touring the campus
had crowded into the lobby, and a woman was trying to corral them into a classroom.
Wyatt and Jack pressed through and exited
to a covered area that adjoined the plaza. Half
a dozen underclassmen stood there guessing
about how many gunmen were up in the
Tower. One of the girls said this must be the
start of a revolution or a student uprising. A
stout boy in Bermuda shorts said that Cubans
were attacking. A thinner one with limp blond
hair peered up at the Tower from under an
archway. “I think it’s only one guy, and he’s
gone around to the other side of the Tower.”
“Move back from there,” Jack told him. “Whoever’s up there can
see you. Have you heard more than one shot at a time?”
“Nope,” the limp- haired boy said.
“It’s hard to tell, because of the echoes,” one of the others said.
Wyatt had been in the tower many times; he knew the view. It was open, clear to the horizon. Austin spread like a puddle.
The sky, Wyatt saw, was clear blue. A low
wall with stone balusters ran the length of
the plaza, broken midway by the steps that
led to the lower walkways. At the top of the
steps the black shoes of the dead man jutted
upward. A girl with a halo of blond curls bent
over the girl in red pedal pushers, who was
lying on her back. The blond girl called for
help, her voice carrying the flat, repetitive
tone of diminishing expectations. “Can somebody
help us? She’s been shot. Can somebody
help us?” A receptionist from the dean’s office
hid behind an oak tree near the wall, her face
against the trunk.
“I swear my dad could shoot that guy from
right here,” the limp-haired boy announced.
“He’s shot wild turkey that far.”
Wyatt had been in the Tower many times;
he knew the view. It was open, clear to the horizon.
Austin spread like a puddle. Pedestrians
were the size of bugs. To the south, the Capitol
dome looked small; to the west, storefronts
lined the Drag. To the east and north were
dormitories, classroom buildings. “What’s
his range?” he asked.
“Five hundred yards with a high-powered
rifle from up there,” Jack said, squatting to
tighten the laces on his sneakers. His hair
was cropped short; he had lost part of an ear
in Vietnam, and the flesh that remained was
flanked by a patch of bald scarring. “I’m going
out there to get that girl off the steps.” He
stood up.
“I’m going with you,” Wyatt said.
“Keep moving in a zigzag,” Jack told him. “Hug the wall. Don’t
stop and think; just move. We’ll carry her down the steps. Be careful;
those shoes won’t have traction.”
“There’s another girl,” Wyatt said. “In the center. You can’t see her
from here; I saw her from the window. She was trying to crawl to the
hedge.”
The Tower bells had begun to chime, and the limp-haired boy in the archway leaned out
to look up. Wyatt saw him drop and thought he
had slipped. But it wasn’t a usual way to fall—
on his back, with his legs turned under. There
was a hole in his forehead, just over his eye.
“God!” the boy in Bermuda shorts
screamed, pressing his hands over his ears
and staring down at the body. “Oh, God! Gary’s
been shot!”
Jack and Wyatt gripped the lifeless body
under the arms and dragged it toward the
door. A lump of bloody skull and silky hair lay
on the ground. The girl beside them tried to
help; the boy in shorts bent over and vomited,
then raised his head and screamed, “He shot
Gary! He shot Gary!”
Looking at the plaza, Wyatt saw that the
blond girl who’d been calling for help was
gone. The girl in the pedal pushers still lay at
the top of the steps, near the dead man tobogganing
backward. A tall man wearing a coat
and tie strolled into the open from the far side
of the plaza, and Wyatt waved his arms at him
and shouted, pointing toward the Tower. But
the bells drowned out his voice. The man’s
face splintered. Part of it flew away. His arms
rose in the air.
Shelly heard the gunshot whistling through the melodic notes, followed instantly by a boom as loud as a cannon. The man in the black suit entered the edge of her vision, and she saw his face explode. Empty sky hung where his jaw had been. He stayed upright and teetered there. A guy climbed over the wall and pulled him to safety, shoving him over the balusters into someone’s reaching hands. She lay still, breathing shallow wisps of air. The spectacle of her arm grilling on the hot cement was grotesque, so she tried to keep her eyes closed. Occasionally she opened them to a slit, admitting a view of a thin, bright, topsyturvy rectangular world partly obscured by her shattered arm. She was lying in a puddle of blood. With the hand that was operable, she tried to hold her breast in place while still appearing lifeless. She was barely shy of the hedge and could force herself to crawl the last few feet, but the shooter in the Tower might be looking at her through his scope, searching for movement or breath. For the blink of an eye, even. She had forgotten what it was like to lie so still, but a fragment of a childhood memory came flapping haphazardly into the horror of the present. She had played dead with a neighbor boy in a field in back of his home, a trick to attract the buzzards so that the boy, lying flat on his back beside her with his BB gun pointed into the air, could shoot at them when they circled. “Don’t move,” he had told her. “They have good eyesight. Don’t blink. Close your eyes.”
Count the seconds, she thought. Count the seconds that I can stand this. She was waiting for the bells.
The shots were coming now from a different
side of the Tower and sounded slight and
harmless. Shelly’s jaw was beginning to pump,
rattling her teeth together. She remembered
one of her high school teachers talking about
the symptoms of shock but couldn’t remember
what they were. Rapid breathing or slowed
breathing—she had forgotten which. Rapid
pulse or slow. The only obvious thing about
her pulse was that it was pumping the blood
out of her arm. She had stopped her frenzied
panting. Afraid of passing out and bleeding
to death without knowing, she thought she
would stop playing dead if she felt any sense
of darkness and would try, once more, to drag
herself toward the hedge. She wouldn’t be
able to wedge herself beneath it; she would
need to get through the opening and crawl
across the grassy square to the stone base of
the flagpole to find protection.
If she had to, she would try to stand up and run.
The concrete baked her side and her ruined
arm, and she wanted to cradle her face and
protect her cheek from the heat, but she had
locked her hand around her breast to stop the
bleeding. From her awkward vantage she saw
two men run toward the girl at the top of the
steps; they leaned and scooped her up and
carried her down, out of sight, her legs, in
bright-red pedal pushers, dangling over their
arms. They left behind her textbooks and her
sandal. On the steps, the soles of a man’s shoes
pointed up, like the ears of a curious rabbit.
Shelly summoned the voice of her childhood
neighbor demanding that she close her
eyes. She imagined the piercing, weightless
gaze of buzzards circling and heard the popping
of guns and realized some of the firing
now was coming from ground level. Moving
her head just slightly and peering from halfclosed
eyes, she saw someone shove a barrel
out of a window of the history building and
fire up at the Tower.
The smell of blood baking into the ground
sickened her. She was aware of the dead boy
lying behind her and heard moaning and cries.
The Tower clock struck fifteen minutes after
the hour. She wondered if she would live to
the half hour. When the gunfire blasted down
again, she felt it through the ground. Fragments
flew over the wall. Thoughts arose in
pieces: her mother spreading jelly over a slice
of buttered toast, a dog in the distance barking,
her father changing a flat tire, his shoulders
moving as he pumped the jack.
Count the seconds, she thought. Count the seconds that I can stand
this. She was waiting for the bells.
Wyatt knew the girl in the pedal pushers
was dead the moment they lifted her from the
ground, but there was no time to reconsider
the effort to save her. They carried her down
the steps, skirting the dead man. Wyatt lost
his footing once and lost his grip on the girl’s
legs but dragged them up again.
They laid her close to the wall. She was
soaked in blood from her chest to her thighs
and smelled of feces. A blue clip tacked her
bobbed hair to her temple. She was stocky
and muscular—stout through the middle and
short-legged. Her pretty face stared blindly
upward, past the face of Woodrow Wilson and
through the limbs of an oak tree.
People had started firing up at the Tower;
gunshots came from the English and history
buildings and peppered the air from the football
stadium. An ambulance from a funeral
home backed hurriedly toward Wyatt and
Jack on the narrow street that ran between
the steps and the tree-covered parts of the
mall. Then a bullet pierced the rear window,
and the driver pulled forward again. Wyatt
felt the girl’s wrist for a pulse. But he knew
she was dead.
“The girl by the hedge,” Jack said. “Did you see if she was alive?”
“I only got a glimpse. She wasn’t moving. I
saw somebody moving on the ground up closer
to the Main Building, but he’d be hard to get
to.” He wasn’t sure he could bring himself to
go back out on the plaza but pulled his shoes
off anyway.
A policeman with a shotgun came running
from the direction of the fountain, darting
through the trees and then across the street
to where Wyatt and Jack crouched over the
girl’s body. He positioned himself beside them
and was surveying the plaza from between
the balusters that topped the wall when a
series of rapid shots chipped at the balusters
and he pulled his head down and squatted
between Jack and Wyatt, nearly stepping
on the girl’s hand.
Bullets fired from the ground had struck the clock face and freckled the stone. But the shooter up there was invisible.
“Mother of God. That was a carbine. An
“That’s the first I’ve heard it; it’s been bolt-action,”
Jack told him.
“You think there’s more than one asshole up
there?” Sweat streamed from under his cap.
“I think he’s got more than one gun. He’s
pinned down by return fire and shooting from
the rainspouts. What’s the plan?”
“My plan is to get up there and kill the son
of a bitch.” He raised himself cautiously for
another look and then, after a glance, lowered
himself again and settled his back against
the wall, his boots planted in bird droppings
beside the dead girl’s head. Pulling his hat off,
he wiped an arm across his face.
A volley of gunfire came from the business
and economics building, and the bells
chimed the half hour. The rapid, flat, cracking
sound of the carbine moved to the west side
of the Tower. The officer shoved his hat on
and tugged at his sweaty uniform. Struggling
up from his crouched position, he leaned to
look cautiously up the steps, his gaze lingering
only a second on the dead man. “You boys stay
here,” he said, and mounted the steps at a run.
Wyatt raised his head high enough to look
between the balusters and see the top of the
Tower. Bullets fired from the ground had
struck the clock face and freckled the stone.
But the shooter up there was invisible. The
officer moved rapidly across the bright plaza
in a loping stride, bullets striking the ground
around him and flinging up dust at his heels.
“At least now we have police here,” Wyatt said.
But how many policemen were there? He
had seen only the one, who didn’t have much
of a plan for storming the Tower and whose
shotgun would be useless from the ground
against a high-powered rifle and an automatic
carbine.
“If the other police aren’t armed any better, they might as well throw
rocks up at the fucker,” Jack said.
A bullet nicked the baluster. Ducking his
head, Wyatt noticed a movement on the plaza.
The corpse of the girl lying beside the hedge
opened her mouth and lifted her head from
the ground.
Shelly called to the policeman running past
her, a spray of bullets nicking the ground at
his heels. When he was gone, she pulled her
legs in closer to make herself smaller and lay
motionless, watching a fly move about in the
blood on her arm. The arm was becoming
numb. She was unbearably thirsty. She heard
shouting, sirens in the distance, and continual
gunfire, and thought she still heard the song
playing—Every other day, every other day
/ Every other day of the week is fine, yeah—
but then realized this was only in her mind.
The ground started to rumble and her field
of vision was invaded by a large vehicle—an
armored car of the type she had seen transporting
money on the highways—lumbering
heavily across the plaza. She thought it was
coming to rescue her, but then she began to
fear it, it looked so sightless and enormous.
It blocked her view. The sound of the motor
drowned her thoughts, and the exhaust made
her cough, jolting her injured body. She felt an
eerie rising up of the ground and opened her
eyes again and saw the monstrous creature
leaving, making its way slowly across the terrace.
The bells chimed again, sounding heavy and ominous in the upside-down world. A
second policeman followed the path of the
first, passing her by. She had stopped hoping
for rescue. Her legs had started to shake and
to jerk at the knees. She thought of the gap in
the hedge. The gap would open to grass, and
grass would offer—if not refuge—relief from
the scalding heat.
For half a second, an inexplicable wintry sharpness invaded the hot August air.
She was thinking of trying to crawl again,
when two men came running rapidly up the
steps in her direction. They were the same two
guys who had carried away the girl in the pedal
pushers. The shorter one was quick and athletic.
His white shirt was smeared with blood.
The other was tall and barefoot with a colorful
madras shirt that was coming untucked
from his trousers. He wore glasses with black
frames. They came to her quickly, and she
braced herself for the pain. The shorter one
took hold of her twisted arm and laid it over
her chest. “Don’t!” she screamed, trying to
kick him away.
But they did what they had come to do.
“Take this, take her arm, take her arm, goddammit—”
“She’s bleeding from the chest—”
“Support her head—”
“We’re going to get you out of here. It’s okay,
it’s okay.”
The pain was unimaginable. “It’s not
okay!” She turned her head and vomited
as the ground receded and she was lifted.
She couldn’t see, couldn’t breathe, and her
screeching and squealing seemed to come
from someone other than herself. The blue
sky turned white. The guys steadied her arm.
Her blood-soaked fingers grasped the madras
shirt.
Concrete burst around her, and the deafening
boom of the rifle emptied the world of air.
“Ah, God, he’s shooting at us!” one of the guys
was saying. “Don’t drop her—”
“We can’t make it to the steps—
“This way, this way, fuck—”
“Support her arm—”
“The flagpole’s closer—”
“It’s not enough—”
“Go to the flagpole.” They pressed her arm
so tightly she heard the bones grating. The
tall boy’s eyeglasses were askew. The world
jostled from red to blue; the faces blocked the
light for parts of seconds. The slanted flagpole
sliced the sky in two.
The last thing Wyatt saw before his glasses
fell to the ground was a face in the center window
on the third floor of the English building,
just under the red-tile roof. It seemed to
be looking at him. From a window next to it,
someone fired up at the Tower and retreated.
But the face in the center window never moved, as if frozen in a sudden awareness
that the sky could drop, life could stop, the
world could instantly explode into pieces.
It looked weirdly disembodied—pale and
blanched—the clarity of the features, at such
a distance, abnormal, as if the face were not
exactly human but instead an artist’s rendering
of how a human face reacts to horror. Like
the primal face of fear. For half a second, an
inexplicable wintry sharpness invaded the hot
August air, and then the face dissolved with
the rest of the world when Wyatt’s glasses fell.
He reached out but couldn’t find them. He
snagged a bare foot in the grass and stumbled.
The girl sagged in his arms.
“Goddamn it!” Jack cried.
They threw themselves to the ground behind
the circular block of concrete that was
the base of the flagpole. In the grass nearby, a
boy in shorts and a surfer shirt lay writhing,
bleeding from the neck. Wyatt folded the girl
into his lap as Jack tried to move in closer. But
the space couldn’t shield all three of them.
A bullet hissed in the air; the grass kicked
up. “He’s aiming at us!” Jack shouted. “The
fucker’s aiming at us!”
Wyatt locked his knees around the girl to
hold her steady, her back against his chest.
Planting his feet on either side of her body, he
placed her mangled arm against her stomach
and tried to make more room for Jack, who
pushed himself in sideways. “Pull your knees
up,” Wyatt told him, inching back. “Get your
back against her stomach.”
“I’m too far out.” Jack said. He paused to
catch his breath. A bullet hit the ground beside
his foot, another beside his knee. “Fuck, I’m
getting out of here. There’s no room.” He got
to his feet and ran. Wyatt held the girl more
tightly.
Jack was running when the bullet hit him.
Wyatt saw him fall. He saw it indistinctly
without his glasses. Drawing his knees to his
chest, Jack rolled from side to side, yelling
to Wyatt, “Stay where you are! I can get up!”
But he didn’t get up. He clutched his thighs.
“Wyatt?” he yelled, more plaintively.
“God, Jack—”
“Wyatt?”
“Can you get up?”
“It’s bad—”
“I’m coming to get you—”
“No . . . stay there.”
“Where are you hit?”
“Shit. Ah, God—”
“Where are you hit?"
“Don’t come.”
“Can you walk?”
His knees were tucked to his chest.
“Is he up there?” Wyatt yelled. “Can you see him up there?”
“No. Don’t come for me. You hear me? Fuck you if you come
for me!”
“I’m coming for you, Jack—”
He tried to think of a way to let go of the girl
and still protect her. A bullet hit the flagpole
over their heads, and the vicious vibration
made him think he had been shot. He looked
at the girl and saw that she was screaming, but
he couldn’t hear her. “Can you stay upright
on your own?” he shouted. But he couldn’t
hear his words, and he wasn’t sure he had said
them. He had no sense of what he needed to do.
Only gradually, as he held her, did the whimpering
of the girl break through.
Shelly’s mouth was dry, her voice trapped
by her clattering teeth. The blood still flowed
out of her arm. She harbored herself between
Wyatt’s knees, her back against his chest. His
sweat had soaked her. He was holding her arm
too tightly against her body. But if he let go, it
would drop. He maneuvered himself slightly
away; she felt his knuckles against her spine as
he unbuttoned his shirt. She felt him peeling
the shirt away. He swept it around the front
of her and knotted the sleeves at her chest.
“What’s your name? What’s your blood type?”
he asked her.
“Shelly Maddox.”
“Your blood type?”
“A-positive. I think. I don’t know.”
“How does my cousin look? How bad is he? I can’t see without my
glasses.”
“He’s on his side. I think he’s shot in the legs. The thighs.”
“The other guy— is he moving?”
“I can’t tell.” She tried to focus her eyes. The
world was heaving from side to side. Every
breath was painful. She noticed a man’s face
staring down from the center window on the
third floor of the English building and for an
instant saw herself through those distant
eyes: how small she looked, bundled into the
arms of the stranger.
A small plane in the sky started to circle inward. “Could they shoot
him from up there?” she whispered.
“From up where?”
“The airplane— is it coming to help us?”
“I don’t see a plane.”
She tried to nod in that direction to show
him where it was. The airplane looked as
flimsy and weightless as a bird. She watched
it drop and thought it was falling, but then
it bounced back up again, the canvas sides
rippling in the wind. Gradually it started circling
inward again. But after a rapid firing of
gunshots from the Tower, it turned away and
disappeared behind her line of vision.
His bare feet were like the feet of stone pillars in the grass beside her. She felt he wouldn't allow her to die, as if he breathed for them both.
Jack was getting up. Wyatt shouted to him over Shelly’s head. Jack
yelled back, but Shelly couldn’t understand what it was he said. He
pivoted onto a knee, as awkward as an inchworm.
His hands clawed at the grass. Wyatt
leaned out, trying to see the Tower. “Don’t,”
Shelly murmured, her mouth so dry the word
sounded inhuman, and then, in a whisper:
“Don’t go.” She intended to mean it for his
sake. But then she said, “Don’t leave me.” She
said it several times and tightened her hold
on his arm, sinking herself into the heat of
his body.
Jack struggled toward the wall, hunched in
the middle and dragging a leg. When he had
nearly reached it, someone climbed over the
balustrade from the other side and helped
him over and out of view.
Wyatt rested his face against Shelly’s
head. He seemed to be melting into her. But
his weight stayed solid against her back. His
knees on either side of her walled out the
world. His naked arms, locked tightly around
her, kept her from falling sideways. His shirt
secured her arm; his bare feet were like the
feet of stone pillars in the grass beside her.
She felt he wouldn’t allow her to die, as if he
breathed for them both. She allowed herself
to drift, her mind to wander.
Her fear began to drain away. Closing her
eyes to the bright light, she was aware she was
whispering and he was whispering back. Vibrations
of his voice rose and fell like the notes
of a song, though she couldn’t make sense of
his words. She felt he was trying to keep her
awake and begged him not to stop talking.
But then she grew tired and after a while,
stopped listening. The clock was chiming
the hour.
It chimed the quarter hour. She wondered
if several hours had passed. The firing
continued and seemed to grow more
distant. Less consistent. A mere pattering
of raindrops. Eventually, it stopped.